Thoughts and Reflections

Now then do I realised how lonely I felt all along. The harder and more focused I work on something, the more lonely I feel. This is somehow related why I had the unexplained urge to start up a SMS chat with someone yesterday after burying myself in books for the whole day, yet I didn't manage to. Why is that so? What's this feeling I'm getting all these years? All these years I've been throwing myself into games, music, the computer, the Internet... Just to get a false sense of belonging and finding comfort in the virtual world and society. Even though I'm fully aware that all these are short term means of escape, but I'm just somehow addicted to it.. Maybe its because there ain't any other alternatives.. Maybe.

Another observation I had, which popped into my head when my friends and I were talking about what kind of girls we look out for. Going through my memories (haha ryan, no pun intended when I said " 'memory' is growing on me"), I realised all my crushes (yea, only crushes, no gf. Sad right? haha) all had some kind of common attributes. Lemme show you what I mean:

Their names are censored for privacy.

P5 - V***
Swimmer (she even beat me in swimming), Learns piano
The only person i confessed to and got rejected, and she had to show the message to the whole class -.-

Sec1~Sec2 - H****
Dancer, not sure what she learns..
Gave up after she went out with my good friend >.<

JC1 - Y*****
Learns piano, In sports CCA (shall not mention >.<)

Yeah.. you get what I mean.. Weird huh. Even the girl band guitarist I talked about that time is in TJC Soccer (just found out last friday when she walked past wearing the soccer shirt).. Maybe I'm naturally attracted towards musically inclined and/or sporty kinds huh.. Hm.

Oh well, moving away from my thoughts..
Went to the newly upgraded Chinatown hawker center.. and boy was it HUGE.. I spent like over 10minutes walking around to check out all the stalls.. Around 40% (lol I sound like a certain PE teacher we have in TJC eh.. haha) of the stalls are closed or their owners have not 'moved in' yet.. But still.. WOAH.. There was actually an excess of seats for the first time I ever went to eat there. Hygiene improved tremendously too. I don't see armies of flies and wet floors anymore. It actually feels like a proper hawker center, only cleaner, instead of a wet market like before.

On the way we walked through this structure.. Its like a huge fanfair kind of tent which has a hell lot of lanterns hanging from the top.. Nope, its not lightbulbs. I thought so too initially. They also have some tiny piece of paper hanging from it. I asked my dad what's this structure for and he told me "some Indian festival".. And I'm having doubts.. Lol.. I'm quite sure the wordings on the papers hanging from the lantern ain't Indian words.. They look too much like Chinese words.. Haha

Here they are:


Looks quite grand from here eh? =)