Shag

Too shag. Shall blog tmr or the day after, once I get back in shape.. Slept 1hr only. k bye.

Long Week Ahead

Finally.. 1 week is ending.. I don't sound like I'm enjoying the holidays do I? Actually counting down the days.. Sheesh. Let me give you a brief summary of what I've done so far:

1) Finished holiday homework in 1~2days
2) Started revising Physics. Finished half the TYS. Result? Burned out brain.
3) Went for GP remedial crap.. I think its a waste of time.. Kanna drill so much yet I don't see any improvement in my GP results.. zzz
4) Started running regularly again.. Everyday mum wakes me up at 7.30am before she leaves for work, I go run, buy breakfast downstairs, come up, eat and study same time..
5) Coordinate the IT Club Nightwalk and class CIP with some NUS dude called Weijian
6) Watched Eyeshield21 anime up to episode 40+ (or was it 50+? lost track.. bah) cos I was too bored
7) Played random offline games like Super Smash Bros (SSB) on N64 emulator (Project64). Really nice game which I played in Pri school days.. Used to spend a whole day playing with my classmates. Everytime there's a birthday party.. ends up being a SSB party. Hah.

And during the coming days.. Gah.
Sunday: Lugging my electric guitar, amplifier and other accessories to Ebenex to sell (hope can fetch a decent price =D)
Monday, Tuesday: IT Club camp
Wednesday: Guitar lesson (got shifted to Wednesday because the school isn't open coming Friday), quite insignificant la actually.. lol
Thursday: Dinner with WON24 peeps at Seoul Garden =D
Friday: Oh finally a free day! For now at least..

Sian... Oh by the way, here's my great plan for revision:
Week 1: Finish Physics TYS (well obviously I'm way behind schedule, too much SSB and Eyeshield21 I guess..)

Week 2: Finish all Maths Papers put online on the TJC Matrix portal (I doubt I can do it anyway, looking at my busyness coming week)

Week 3: Finish the 2 Computing papers put online by Mr Kao, after studying all the topics (erm, I switched off in Computing lessons since er... inheritance? oh crap.)

Week 4: Consolidate Economics concepts and review methods on how to write GP stuff, essays, AQ, etc.. Well since these 2 subjects can be practiced through sheer talking, I intend to do so.. Or I seriously will die from all the hardcore spammage from Week1~3 =\

Sounds torturous? I don't even have the faintest idea how and why the heck I came up with something like this. Hope it actually pays out well. If not I just sacrificed my whole holiday for shit. Oh ya, I'll be too busy to blog for quite some time I suppose.. Unless I could manage to pull myself out of the paper heap.

Econs Tuition Dinner!

Yay. Mrs Raj was so nice to treat us to Seoul Garden this evening. Supposedly meet at 5pm, but everyone except Yun Hui and me were late >.<

First time eating Seoul Garden, heard its some free flow buffet steamboat thingy.. When I sat down, the first thought was "Eh, where's the boat?", the second thought was "It's more like steampot -.-"

Oh well, off to get food. Oh noes! There's no rice?! Ahh.... I'm going to go hungry (there's only spaghetti and I don't eat pasta, not to mention those who ate said it sucks) =(
Bah, no choice, eat other stuff.. Ooh, what's that? 7 different kinds of marinated chicken to cook? Holy crap. Being curious and suspicious, I tried all. Garlic chicken, curry chicken, teriyaki chicken, chicken bourgeoise, char siew chicken, etc etc. To my surprise, it was NICE! Woah.. first time I tasted such nice marinated food. Usually those marinated food I ate taste as if they're not marinated -.-

Ah anyway, we ate till we cut into our Econs tuition time. Daryl (Ang) still wanted more ice-cream, because Jane said the Peach flavour was nice. So we watched him eat. Haha.. Took 1 gathering picture (of 9 people) and many pictures of some horrible concoction made by mixing all the leftovers, all 3 different soup bases and daryl's chocolate mint ice-cream (because he said it tastes horrible, so he threw it in. Haha).. Ended up some wierd smell came out when Valerie was stirring it... And I think the smell got stuck onto our shirt, Junyi started complaining when we were having class halfway and had to open the door. Haha.

Felt so tired throughout the whole dinner and after the dinner during lesson, in fact I've been feeling so tired even before I left my house.. Sheesh. What's wrong with me? I managed to force myself to complete all my holiday homework (ok, not much, only 10hours worth of programming and highlighting 10 essays' introductions) within 1~2days and now I can't bring myself to start studying -.-"

1st Weekday of the Holiday!

Went back to school to meet Justin and Wen Quan to discuss our IT Club nightwalk on 2nd june night. Before that I detoured to my grandma house opposite the "Kaki Bukit Hawker Centre" (er i seriously still don't know what's her address/area called.. haha). And I met Winston at the 38 bus stop to school! He said he needed to go for Photography Club meeting... and then, slack for the rest of the day.. Lol.. But what else to expect sia.. It IS the holidays after all =)

But according to Winston, there was an article in the newspaper that had this title:
"Holiday? What Holiday?"

Yeah, quite sad huh. Even primary school kiddies have compulsory extra lessons. I wonder how Singaporean kids even have any form of childhood. We both agreed on the bus that Singapore is a good place to live in, IF you're filthy rich and don't have to work here. It's a peaceful place where you won't be mobbed/kidnapped/whacked by just any layman on the street, and that there's no natural disasters (for now, thats what Winston says.. I find it hard to agree >.<), but the amount of stress from school and work is WOAH.. more than enough to turn anyone off... Oh well..

Repair works going on at the main gate, gotta walk from the side gate.. Winston got stopped by the security guard (the black and fat one, if you're not sure which) for wearing slippers. Winston told him he injured his feet and he went Sinseh.. So no MC.. Then he ask for letter.. eh? Okay nvm.. no choice, he has a meeting, have to somehow get in. Hah! Lucky Winston's friend walked in behind.. he hurried and got Winston a pair of white shoes to slip in.. So Winston no choice, slip into the shoes to get in lor..

But guess what? The security guard said "Boy, you don't play with me. You say your leg injured, have to wear slippers, then now you wearing shoes. You don't come and play with me next time ar, just wear shoes." When Winston said "But you want me wear shoe what, if not you don't let me in. So pain I also wear lor.." Then the security guard continued "No no no, you don't come and play with me."

I'm like "WTH"? He injured, no choice wear slippers. You don't let him in. You say only shoes then can go in. So he asked friend to take shoes for him to wear, so that he can wear it (bearing the pain) and go for his meeting, then you say he's fooling around with you? What kind of shit is that? You saying that any injured student will be barred from school or you expect Sinseh to give MC? And you think everyone so rich ar? Every single injury also see doctor get MC. It's not like you see doctor for EVERYTHING right? Look at this la, even if I sprained my leg while running or playing basketball, I'll just try and recover on my own. I have never seen a doctor for leg sprains or injury before (except once when I fell onto the escalator and needed stitches). That means I can't go school anymore? That's lame like shit.

When I walked away, to meet Justin and Wen Quan, after the thing was settled and Winston went for his meeting, I was sighing and shaking my head.. What's the school coming to.. Sigh.. Then suddenly I hear shouting "Boy! Hey you boy!", I was like.. "Wth, you still want to quarrel with Winston? @#%*@369*@#" so I turned around and looked. But instead he beckoned me. Curious, I walked towards him. Then he told me "If you not happy, you can find Mr Tong." What was that? Lol.. No wonder people call TJC - Tong's JC.. Either the security guard is just hiding behind Tong or Tong's logic is seriously screwed. Either way, the school is getting worse.

Met with Justin and Wen Quan at the basketball court. Their class wanted to play bball after their math remedial.. Guess what? We ended up playing all the way till lunch. Nothing was discussed.. Sia la! Lol... But quite sad, I don't know why, everyone so violent today. Kun Sheng was ramming around as usual, but only more fiercely (maybe he got stressed from the math remedial), and ended up getting whacked by the ball (and hands) several times.. The result? He seemed more pissed >.< And Kelvin got really pissed. He threw the ball and shouted "Bang what bang? **** you la!" or smth like that, and then he never played for the rest of the time.. Oh ya, and 2 random badminton guys challenged Wei Cheng and us.. Wei Cheng was like "nvm one, we thrash them", then I'm like "erm.. badminton.. they jump vertically.. look at my classmate Zachary, standing broad jump 3m average..) But somehow we miraculously won them 7-4 =\

Oh well, anyway after lunch opposite the hawker centre, the 3 of us went to Bedok Central KFC to discuss. We finally planned it out. Woo hoo.. then we stoned at KFC till like 3pm+, I finally got too bored and said "Lets go somewhere else, erm.. watch movie at Princess?" Today's Monday, movies at Princess only $5 =D

And we did, we watched Indiana Jones, the only movie screening when we reached there.. The other 2 movies' next screenings are like at 7pm... The movie was not bad la, had a few funny moments.. But got a few parts quite lame. And Wen Quan can't stop complaining about Indiana Jones' soundtrack. It was like repeated over and over again in the movie, at every possible moment when they needed a background music (like for example, when the Indiana Jones is running away) lol.. Maybe they had no other sound track =P

Overall, not bad la, we paid only $5, what's there to complain. Even a lame show like "Balls of Fury" seems worth it to watch in Princess haha. $5~$6.50 for humour relief instead of spending $6.50~$9.50 in a regular cinema. Hehe ^^

Disappointment

I can't take this anymore. He just sent my family into chaos and misery once again, during dinner this time. I'm so disappointed in my dad. This is not an one-off feeling or resentment. It's been like that for quite some time already..

He's so irresponsible. By this I don't mean those guys who run out on their families. He has never sincerely accepted any mistakes he made. The only time he has said "It was my fault" or any equivalent, was when he's boot-licking his superior at work, even then, he'll come home and complain that it wasn't his fault (proving that he's not even responsible at work). He always pushes the fault to other people even when it is so obvious that it was his. And he blames everyone but himself for everything that happens to him. He scolded my mother for crying because he said her crying made him feel angry, when my mother cried because of him. What the hell is with that? I wonder how I even managed to grow up under such kind of parental influence... Maybe I have his irresponsible genes.. Can someone verify with me on this?

Another thing, he's a "devoted" buddhist. By "devoted" I meant he wears it by his mouth. He always "listens" to buddhist talks and scriptures and "recites" them.. but he seriously doesn't learn anything. Instead of listening and learning, what he does is that he listens, and then uses what he has "learnt" to scold people or dictate people around or curse people into his bidding. This is like a total violation of what he has been preaching.. Wow.. I'm amazed at how he actually manages to do it all the time. He calls himself a "devoted buddhist who wants to go to Pure Land" and yet he resorts to violence and often threatens to kill us all then kill himself. I think he can enter the Guinness Book of World Records for being the most "unbuddhist-like buddhist".

Oh and another thing, which is somehow linked to the first 2 points. He hardly does what he expects or demands others to do. Okay, this may be trivial, but to me, its going against my principles. I mean, look at it this way, if I don't eat shit, yet I force you to eat shit, will you? No. Obviously. But if I eat shit, and ask you to do the same, you might do so right? Because after all, I have eaten it, it can't be that bad. You get the drift... He often shouts and ask us not to shout. He demands my sister to enter EM1 in P4 when he himself was never a good student (I'll touch on this on the next paragraph). He shouts to ask people not to shout, etc etc..

About my sis, he totally screwed her life over. Firstly, he expects way too much from us. He's been comparing my sis (who is quite lazy in my opinion) with me since she started schooling in P1. My dad expects my sis to produce comparable results since the first year of schooling when I got 292/300 and First in Standard in P1. Since then, hell started for her. In P4, when she entered EM3 (when I entered GEP in P4), my dad scolded her all the words you wouldn't expect from a dad. In Chinese: "Why you so stupid? You're so stupid you might as well go kill yourself. EM3? Why can't you be like your brother? You disgrace to the family. Your ancestors will never forgive you.. etc etc", well not really word for word (my memory ain't that great) but the tone and idea is there. Can you imagine? A 10-year-old kid whose greatest source of support scolded her these kind of words? The kind of emotional trauma and pain she suffered? Recently we brought this up to my dad during an argument and he expected my sis to give him a 180degree change in attitude after he said "sorry". Wow. He thinks his "Sorry" can cure the hurt he has done all these years? He's so naive..

Then when she had a boyfriend, my dad started to scold her "You slut. You cheap. Why you so cheap? Why you like guys so much? etc".. well duh? If not you want her to be lesbian (no offence to homosexuals) ar? You condemned our uncle for being gay (I don't see why. If he's happy, let him be la, break them up for what.. See la, now my uncle no motivation to recover from his stroke, whole day laze on the bed.. And guess what? He blames my aunt (elder sis) who is taking care of my uncle for my uncle's laziness. No surprise here). Yet you not happy that your daughter is straight... Then he goes ahead to break them up. When my sis got another boyfriend, the same thing happens. And for every boyfriend she has, my father condemns my sister and calls her a "prostitute".. What the heck la. Now my sister hates studying since my dad kept telling her she's stupid etc.. And he blames my mum for not quitting her job 4 years ago and stay at home to take care of my sis.

The family doesn't provide love. So my sister went out to find. How is that wrong? And all thanks to my dad, my sister hates me since young.. Well at least now we patched up. But still, the crack is there.

I'm not saying that I have the worst dad on earth, that's too absolute. There's definitely some other worse one out there. But why do I have a dad like that? A dad who is not responsible, uses religion to pressure people (Maybe thats why I became an atheist eh?), emotionally hurts everyone in our family (he purposely choose words to agitate and hurt both my sister and mother emotionally and mentally. I'm not affected because I treat it calmly and analyse what he says, which doesn't make sense most of the time anyway..) and sometimes even resort to violence (Yea, you heard me right. He tried to attack me and me sister with a hammer, knife, bamboo pole, threw chairs at us, etc before.. I'm serious). I've tried talking to him several times but he never listens or heeds advice.. Even when my mother tried approaching my grand-dad (my dad's mum passed away when he was in P6), he just brushed it away as a simple couple quarrel, and refuses to listen (my dad also doesn't listen whenever he's in the wrong). Maybe it does pass down in the genes, generation by generation.. Can someone verify if I'm like that as well? If so, I wish to rectify this ASAP. I don't want to let the next generation suffer. If I can't do that, I'll remain a bachelor my whole life.

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Went for VJC Harmonica concert last night.. sian la! I missed first half of the show.. stupid 197 tio jam jam jam like nobody's business... 45min journey become 1hr 30min journey or so... zzz.. Anyway, they were good.. but their MCs were crap.. they bore the audience -.-

Oh, and I met many friends, both expected and unexpected.. There was Kaiwan, Jinci, Cleaven whom I know were performing (they were good sia..), then I met Hao Jun and Yan Cheng.. I could hardly recognise them lol.. Hao Jun looks less kiddish (maybe because Kevin not with him.. brings back memories of the Kevin-Hao Jun comedy duo.. haha) and Yan Cheng had a haircut till he looked like (as a certain PE teacher in TJC always loves to say..) army boy.. Concerts sure are a good place to catch up with friends and enjoy oneself =)
...and maybe make friends? Erm.. Not so sure about that though.. Went with Mianjun's Cheung Cheng class twice during VJ guitar and harmonica concert.. Ended up they talked among each other.. I feel so alienated.. Oh well.. Expected.. Haha.. at least I know who Kenneth Papa is.

Oh btw, I haven't talked about Pedra Branca right? Wooo!! Go Singapore!! Expand your water territories... Go go go! Give us a official school day off to celebrate!! Oh wait, its the holidays.. Damn...

Its over. Hm.

Mardi Gras ended yesterday night. I'm not exactly quite happy.. they sacrificed "My Sacrifice".. After I spent 3hrs learning it because Fawwaz said he can't play it and only I will be playing it.. zzzz.. Bah whatever. The performance was shitty as well. Every song at least 1 person screw up. zzz.. Bah, screw it. whatever. zzz

It seems like I have suddenly became a free man. No more things to do. Is that good or bad?